DeeAnn participated in Cultivating Women's Leadership and shares her reflections.
Behavioral Reflections Since CWL Training
The Bioneers CWL training found me newly empty nested and experiencing a desperate feeling of “alone” in my efforts to conduct my company with a progressive business ethos.
The results of sitting with intention and openness with the women for those days has produced surprising results—surprising, in that in the immediate weeks and months to follow, I had a sense of a lack of worthiness. It felt as the other women in the group had such direct and focused purpose and that I lacked that clarity.
There was an exercise where we stated our focused purpose and intention for our coming days. During preparation, I wrote and rehearsed my piece, yet just before presenting, I completely edited and shifted what I said. Still, I felt inauthentic after presenting. I felt I lacked clarity of purpose. I was grasping to “know.”
And yet, in the last four months—to my amazement—I have acted upon my statement. The power of publicly stating my intentions to these women, I think, set in motion—what I can only call the power of intention. With these stated goals, I have observed myself, as if propelled and supported by unseen Forces, to fulfill these intentions. I have had versions of “out-of-body” experiences, observing myself, effortlessly, in the pursuit of my stated “purpose.”
Additionally, I have noticed women approaching me—women seeking to deepen their relationship with themselves. Just last night, I realized that I feel a calling to start a women’s circle. Though I have dreamed this in the past few months, I hadn’t moved on the impulse. …And now, organically, it has arisen in the same way my other actions have and, if living in integrity, I have no choice, but to follow.
DeeAnn Downing
PresidAnt, Red Ant Works, Inc.
Park City, Utah
